↳ 21 Jump Street (2012)
”I’ll beat your dick off with both hands, let’s go!”
No matter how much I want to deny it.. I’m missing you now more than ever.
I still love you
2. Dear crush,
im not going to say names becuase last time i did that, you found out and im not about to get myself in all of that shit again. You are horrible to me in every single way. you are not the person that i thought you were at all. you crushed me and my heart into so many scattered pieces. im slowly getting over you and not wanting you in my life even though you will always be in my life as long as im here in this county and doing what i usually do. just let me live my life and i will let you live yours, so please keep your flirting to yourself.
3. Dear Parents,
you guys are the absoulte best. you have done everything for me and have raised me so well. i always brag to you guys to ALL of my friends, please dont change, even though i wish yall would get along a bit more that you guys do. if you guys arent happy together, then just make yourselves happy now that we all are grown up and undrestand. i love you guys and no matter what, will always be first in my heart.
4. Dear siblings,
curran you are so amazing and i look up to you in a lot of ways. you are just like me and i love that we get along so well no matter the circumstances. lexy you really know how to make me dislike someone. you have been a great sister in the past, but right now i cant stand you. just looking at you makes me want to puke. you threw me under the bus so that you could get out of the spotlight. that was really low just saying. just stay true to yourself and figure out who will be there for you in the end and rethink some of the things you have done/said.
I have 4 so here we go.
Megan ruhland,
wow where do I begin with you. I have never been able to always be with someone like I have been able to with you. you are one amazing person. you have really helped mend me into the person I am now. thanks for everything you have done for me. going away to college is going go be so hard for me seeing as I can’t go 2 days without seeing you know! going a year is going to be crazy. please don’t ever change.
crystal Novak,
holy shit I might cry doing this. you are everything to me. I can’t believe you are moving in less than a month. you have been my longest friend and I know that will go throughout my whole life. you are one awesome girl. you know me better than I do completely.. its sucks that you have leave us for our senior year, but I know it’s in your best interest. I live you with every once of heart that I have.
kailey pickitt,
babygirl from diapers we have been close. you are my hero no doubt. you have been there for me through a lot. when I made that national team for cheering and you were the first person that I wanted to bring, that shows real friendship. I can’t wait to see you in a week it’s killing me!
mattew tingle,
I love ya kid. we haven’t really talked much lately but there is always that time that we don’t talk much and then you always find a way to get back in my life. you are such an amazing guy and I nicer want you to forget that. don’t ever settle for less than perfect with anything in your life cause you only deserve that. you have done so well in everything this year and have grown up so much. I will probably miss you the most when I leave.
day one: your best friend
day two: your crush
day three: your parents
day four: your sibling(s)
day five: your dreams
day six: a stranger
day seven: your ex boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day eight: your favorite internet friend
day nine: someone you wish you could meet
day ten: someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day eleven: a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day twelve: the person you hate the most
day thirteen: someone you wish could forgive you
day fourteen: someone you’ve drifted away from
day fifteen: the person you miss the most
day sixteen: someone that’s not in your state/country
day seventeen: someone from your childhood
day eighteen: the person that you wish you could be
day nineteen: someone that pesters your mind - good or bad
day twenty: the one that broke your heart the hardest
day twentyone: someone you judged by their first impression
day twentytwo: someone you want to give a second chance to
day twentythree: the last person you kissed
day twentyfour: the person that gave you your favorite memory
day twentyfive: the person you know that is going through the worst of times
day twentysix: the last person you made a pinky promise to
day twentyseven: the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day twentyeight: someone that changed your life
day twentynine: the person you want to tell everything to, but you’re afraid to
day thirty: your reflection in the mirror
I love him but I can’t show it, want him but he can’t know it, need him but I know it’ll never be, if only he needed me.
^this could explain my life soooo perfectly right at this point
some people will just never understand me, and i guess i will never understand them either. i guess that everything happens for a reason and fate really does step in. i have gone through so much to give up now on everything. there is someone out there for me, just sometimes i feel like he is hiding and is scared, but why?
some people are just plan assholes. why or better yet how can you do that to someone who has bent over backawards to give you everything they have? i just will never truly understand what you didnt see in this, in us. but i guess thats just how things are going to have to be.
i just cant wait to get out of this shit hole, for good. one more year and ill be at csu loving my life in the place i really want to be.
please god, give me the strength to get through this year and let me find the real light in life.
